I'm doing the massive friends cut tonight so I guess you can say this is the obligatory public entry where I try to explain myself. Oddly enough, explaining myself is one of the things I'm sick of doing and one reason I want to make a big cut. While I don't mind explaining all my actions and throwing out disclaimers when needed, I would really rather have an LJ audience of people who I feel know me well enough that I don't have to feel like it is necessary to do such things. I don't want to re-read an entry and start OMG-ing because I forgot to clarify this or that.
I'm not saying I don't ever want to be questioned, that's not the problem at all. I can deal with questions if I feel the motivation behind the questioning is good. Basically, if you know me well at all you'll know my intentions are good. You wouldn't question me to bring bad intentions to the surface. You might correct a mistake I'm making, but if you know me, you'll know that any harm was a result of ignorance rather than a malicious or selfish act.
All that aside, this is the largest factor in my decision to make a cut: I miss having a small group of people who I trust. I miss not filtering entries that are personal because I'm afraid of unfair judgement. Lately, my journal feels more like a community than a personal journal and that has been bothering me for a long time. Disclaimers, explanations, nervousness about posting... those are mostly acceptable when posting to a group of strangers. To me, it's unacceptable to feel that way about personal journal entries.
What sucks, is that I don't actively dislike anyone on my list. So, if you're cut it's not a personal issue between the two of us. It's not even mild dislike... it's just me wanting to cut down on how many people are allowed to see every little part of me. You don't have to care about me, I just hope that each person who I let in has some level of respect for me and my feelings. It's what I expect because it's what I try to give.
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